I want to live with you happily so badly. I like you but every times I think of you I can't stop myself from jealous, envy and sadness. I want to grow strong. I think, I believe, you won't leave me because of it, quite the opposite, It's more likely you will leave me because I'm not good and successful enough, I understand we can't last long if we keep this distance, it's the only way I can do to keep you not to leave me.